Monday, July 26, 2010

Rejoice Greatly

"Praise be to God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us a new birth into a LIVING hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an INHERITANCE that can never perish, spoil or fade - KEPT in heaven for you, who through FAITH are shielded by God's POWER until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you GREATLY REJOICE, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials." - 1 Peter 1:3-6

I've been struggling with personal relationships and having to deal with personal goals being shattered by physical consequences. I was told by the surgeon on Thursday that my ankle wasn't healing fast enough to warrant a cast removal. It'll take at least another two more weeks to heal. I've already taken six weeks of my hospital placements, and I won't be able to take anymore. If I'm still unable to walk independently by next Sunday, I will probably have to take a year off uni.

I was feeling so depressed on Thurs. Everything just seemed to be falling apart.

I'm so grateful for this passage in Peter. It reminded me that all human hope will fade away and will eventually serve to discourage us; there is only a living/growing hope in our inheritance in heaven which will never perish.

I want to surrender all my personal goals to God and just rest in his mercy and grace. Everything that I accomplish in this world will surely fade away so why should I strive so hard to obtain blessings that God hasn't graciously given? I shall receive them should he decide to give them.

I'm so grateful that my inheritance in heaven is being kept not by my spirituality, but by the faithfulness and power of God who is able to keep those who are committed to him. I rejoice greatly that God chose me and glorified me even before I was born. The trials and temptations that snare me presently will only last for a season. God's faithfulness is forever.

Saturday, July 03, 2010

i miss..

I miss the explosive emotion of kicking a ball..

I miss running on a pitch of lush green grass..

I miss getting lost in the ecstasy of dribbling past a challenge or two..

I miss the satisfaction of putting on into the back of the net..

I miss seeing the joy in a teammate's face when they score a goal.. and know that I contributed to it somewhat.

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your life
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments when my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
Sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of
bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
sing like bird
Dizzy in my head
spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile

thanks for making me smile. I miss you :)

Things I'm grateful for:

1) Having a good chat over dinner with Jin, Tommy, and Tom.

2) A very encouraging week at uni

3) My dad's safe return from Sydney

4) Yvonne and Alvin's visit from Singapore

5) Laughter.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Chunky Soup with Puff Pastry..YUM!

Booyah! I'm gonna attempt to cook that tmr night :) After whipping up a chicken and prawn risotto and a ox tail stew in my first week of the hols, I've gotten quite lazy. So I thought I'll cook something cool for Jules before she leaves for Europe on Friday.

She'll be gone for 3 weeks. I know I'll miss her.

Monday night BSF was fun. What was so fun? I got to park in the handicap parking lot so I didn't have to walk for 200m to get into the church. I got to meet a few cool new pple at combined fellowship. I got to pull heaps of Yin-Yang and Singapore's>Malaysia jokes.

But most of all, I had a awesome chat with Tim over coffee to celebrate the end of his exams :) Everyone craves for friends that genuinely love and accept them for who they are. Friends whom they can just be themselves with. Tim's one of those friends to me, and I really thank God for him. He's going away to Canada for the whole of next semester! Ah, I think Sunday's would be very different without him around.

Two weeks on from breaking my ankle: I wish God gave us unbreakable bones.

I was reading the BSF notes today and something really stood out. It read:

"Instead of following a routine of merely obvious actions and decisions, let us first acknowledge God by prayer in all our ways so that He may direct our paths into His ways (Proverbs 3:5-6), resulting in new reactions and meaningful attitudes. Sometimes the good is the enemy of the best."

Jesus' dear friend, Lazarus, was dying from a terminal illness in a location that was a day's journey from where He was. Jesus loved Lazarus dearly and wanted to go back immediately to heal him. But he deliberately waited two whole days before traveling back in accordance to the will of God.

Jesus was so in tune with God that he knew the perfect time for everything, even when it was contrary to the rational mind. This resulted in a far greater miracle and glory to God than if He had simply healed Lazarus. It resulted in the development of Martha's faith and confounded all doubts that Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead (he had been dead for 4 days).

"Sometimes the good is the enemy of the best."

I know God wants the best for me. I just have to trust in Him enough and not rush into actions to resolve my problems impulsively.

3 blessings I'm grateful to God for:

1) My dad who works tirelessly to support my family
2) Laughter
3) The lesson He's going to teach me from my broken ankle

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

the path.

"You make me thank God for all the mistakes I made because each one led me down the path closer to you."
- Legend-wait for it-dary black dude from HIMYM.

Monday, June 21, 2010

4 hours of coffee

I had a 4 hour chat with Tracey over coffee today about starting a Christian t-shirt business. Jo somehow remembered that I had told her about this idea I had some time last year, and she told Tracey about me. I wasn't sure about how much help I would be, but time just flew by us as we were sitting there in Word bookshop. We talked about everything from t-shirt designs, market trends, business plans, personal goals, focus groups, marketing, etc.

She basically wants to start a business that produces custom-made t-shirts presenting Godly valued that are "uplifting" to the human soul. I thought about a very similar idea last year based on the fact that the Word of God is "living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart." (Heb 4:12) The Word of God has the power to feed the soul; the ability to bring deep satisfaction and fulfilment.

How effective would it be to display the Word of God on clothing?

"Jesus loves YOU. But I'm his favourite"

"Jesus PRAYS for YOU" - Hebrews 7:25

"Jesus LOVES the HELL out of you" - John 3:16

"He keeps me in PERFECT PEACE." - Isaiah 26:3

"I can do ALL things through HIM who gives me STRENGTH" - Philppians 4:13

I felt like I did something today helping Tracey get a clearer idea on how to pursue her dream. Quite often, I get crazy and fun ideas that pop up in my mind just like bubbles. They amuse me for just a little while and then they go "pop!" The next time I get a bubble in my mind, I wanna take a good look at it, capture its reflections, and then pursue it even after it pops.

I CAN'T believe Kaka got sent off against Ivory Coast last night. He's such a legend of the game with such a humble spirit. He doesn't deserve a red card just because some dude felt like randomly falling over and whining cuz his mum didn't give him a gun for his 1st b'day present. Seriously, Abdul Kader Keïta, you are a bloody diver and I've lost all respect for you. Grow some balls, and a conscience while you're at it.

I miss fishing. It's less than 2 weeks since I broke my ankle, but it already feels like forever! :( I wanna go fishing. I wanna run. I wanna be able to walk to the toilet.

3 blessings I'm grateful for:

1) Friends who truly love the Lord (Mink, you're someone who really inspires me :D)
2) Memories of both the good and the bad
3) The breath I just took